Blunt

You know what the real trouble with happiness is? Knowing you should always smile and make the other person feel better. I feel like I can never win. I'm too this and not too that. I'm wild, yet, I over think too much. Well fuck it. Honestly, this shit makes me want to move to the middle of nowhere and not talk to anyone. I'm so tired I've never being able to figure it out. I always look for the best in things, people, situations etc...and it's exhausting. Whenever the situation turns and someone else is responsible for providing the reassurance for those things, I feel like I'm naked, standing alone waiting for it...and it never happens. So i anxiously smile, say something light hearted to fill the void and keep the situation moving. I really do believe you have the life that you want to. So how do I stop having the ever positive, care how everyone is feeling, fix every typo in this goddamn post, life that I picture in my mind?